lifE iS iNdEscriBaBle!!

2012-02-15T07:54:00.001-08:00

ini yang terakhir..kalau jadi apa2 jugak..aku redha Ya Allah..aku sudah tahu apakah ertinya gmbira dan sedih..dan aku lbih plih untuk sedih..biarlah aku sdih d dunia ini..mungkin aku akan gmbira di sana..Ya Allah..hanya Engkaulah yg Maha Mengetahui..

2011-07-16T07:55:00.000-07:00

someone?
utk ari sblum neh...ada..
tp utk ari neh...x dk
ari neh n akan dtg
x dk
honest dh tu

....i keep this line as a reminder 4 me..of who i am...

Ya Allah..

2011-07-16T05:52:00.000-07:00

aku pasrah dan aku redha Ya Allah..sesungguhnya semuanya ketentuanMu..hanya Engkau jua yg Maha Mengetahui..

=(

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2011-07-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

when the time that i gain my strength...and loving her..she left me again..and yahh..i cried again..when the time the heart is so fragile..it can easily being.....i dont know..

tears=(

again.....

2011-07-06T08:20:00.000-07:00

tonite...i feel like crying again..but as usual the tears wont come out...everytime i feel like giving up..theres always smething that makes me still holding on..they said that if we truly love someone..go get them..it not that i didnt try..i'm still trying..and i dont want to give up..but she didnt actually gives me any choice..i want to cry...i want to cry so badly...i dont want to hold this pain anymore..i loves her with all my breath..but....some said that if we truly love someone we should pray for their happiness eventhough they are without u..i dont want to do that..i dont know whether i can accept it..can u even imagine everyday u have to lied to urself saying that everythings gonna be ok and that u are okay..how long i want to live like this..i want to make things better again..but.....i dont even have any chance..how could i want to even try..i'm sad..truly i am..no matter how happy i am in the end..i would end up being sad...KAU TERCIPTA UNTUKKU..i want to dedicate this song to her..but i didnt even get any chance..they said that u cant live in the present if u keep dwelling in the past..but actly the past is the one that wont let us go..so how we suppose to move on..i'm writing as she could read this..well at least i'm hoping..'mungkin ini mmg jalan takdirku'-cinta dalam hati-..hmm...myb the time had alrealy came..ok i'm crying..=(((((...u take a good care of urself okay..if u are sick please take the medicine..take care of ur health..

=(((just so u know..i love u till the very end~

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2011-07-03T09:03:00.000-07:00

i dont know why..sriusly i dont know..this feeling..this sad feeling..its making me weak rite now..i really wish the she would know what do i feel rite now..but i realised it is impossible..thats wht makes me more sad..i tried to smile...but the heart wont follow the lips at all..sometimes the heart does not listen to the mind..we keep thinking positive but ony God knows how we suffer inside..u tried to be strong..you keep telling urself that everythings gonna be ok..but for how long can u lied to urself..the more u tried to deny..the stronger it becomes..and the more u will suffer then..everyday u live ur life with the little hope that was given..u know that it is the hope that kills u but still u want to hold on to the hopes because its the only thing that gives u strength to move on..i cant keep the sadness anymore but the tears wont just come out..this is really hurt..u would never know until u feel it urself..hmm.. the choice is up to u...u can be a better person..dont ever let it conquer u..but u conquer urself..just keep telling urself..that everything gonna be ok..

tears again=((

2011-04-21T16:21:00.000-07:00

OMG

sriusly?..i cant hold on anymore...i cant bear all this burden anymore..for all the time that i've stood up against..its gone now..i dont know what to say anymore..all i know..i just couldnt take it anymore..i'm leaving..Dear God..please..give me strength to go through this..i'm very weak right now..i want to do well in my exam..but in condition like this..i dont really have the confidence...please..please..please God..help me to move on...

tears rolling~=(

2009-02-27T00:10:00.000-08:00

somEthInG thAt wE caLL LIFE..

hmm..u know wat...not evrything have a happy ending...things doesnt always goes the way we want it to be rite...well...sometime it made me think that maybe its just the way it should be...u know...i've tried my bes to make it better..but like i said...not always a happy ending...yahh..its kinda sad though..but i'll live...

wats the point pretend to be someone that u're not...sometimes feel left out..sometimes feel out of place...well maybe..it just the way it is..theres no need to be sad..i'm trying to make myself human..i'm trying to develop myself..myb this is just one way to achieve it eyh..hmmmm....

well..i'm a man that full of secrets...who likes to keep everything just for me..kinda hard..but again..i'll live..let it just be me whos trying so hard..no matter wat coming through me..i'll just face it with a smile...and maybe..i'm not good enough..yaaa..MAYBE...but i'll try my best...but sure theres no need to be pretend to be someone that u're not along the way rite..haha...yaaa...i get it now...well..time to cut the crap la...till nex time yaa...daaa~

2009-02-21T07:15:00.000-08:00

juSt sOme wRitinGs...

bila mulut mula membisu,
berkata pula hati kecilku,
saat dikau pergi berlalu,
hatiku sedih bertambah pilu.

ketahuilah sayangku bahawa,
hanya dirimu jua yang amat ku cinta,
hanya satu yang ku pinta,
terimalah diriku apa adanya.

namunku sedar siapa geranganku,
ibarat insan pergi berlalu,
tiada siapa tahu kewujudanku,
di tengah lautan ditiup bayu.

mereka melihat aku ketawa,
namun hatiku tidak berkata,
aku curahkan keringatku sejuta,
cuma setompok kasih ku pinta.

kebahagiaan ku cari tiada lagi,
cuma air mata menemani diri,
teman ku mohon merawat sepi,
agar hidup ceria kembali.

-taken from a piece a heart-

losT???....

2009-02-19T05:07:00.000-08:00

lOsT??...

hahaha..today realy got crazy la..haha...okeh..so here's the story..today..i msej cep gtaw nak p tasik darulaman..then he reply..ok ja..masa tuh mayb around 4 o'clock..then i get ready...start dat car and went to cep's house...haaa...then we went there by highway...

then after lepas tol kt alor star tu..there was two junction u know...left one went to bukit kayu hitam or alor star..straight one lead to pendang...i don know which way..so i ask la cep..which way to go...he said he don know..so i pon kinda cuak la..haha..then i went straight..haa...thats when it start to lost..i shud be taking left actlly...haha...

then trus punya trus..smpy sesat dlm 15 mnit aku drive..then cep kol his fren..he said me already mis the first turn..then i got panic la...then cep said to make u-turn at gurun..so i pon made la u-turn..then straight again..we asked that kakak yg jaga tol tu..seb bek on da way gak..straight pya straight smpy bndar darulaman..smpy2 myk plak abeh...after smpy at da tasik...we went usha2..haha...then minum,..pastu blek kui 7...gila taw..p kui 4.30 then smpy tasik 2 6.30..TWO HOURS u know lost!!...hahaha...smpy tasik got not enough time to walk around..ciss..pabeh myak ja...haha...then kui 7 balek....we balek kot jalan lggar ja..xbrani ikot highway da..hahaha...before balek stock some fuel..crazy ahh...money talks on da way...caaiisshh...huhu...hmm..after balek i sent cep home..theni went home..well..thats the story for today..till nex time yaa...daaa~

HElp mE..

2009-02-18T04:39:00.000-08:00

HElp mE..

*sigh..i wonder why rite now...feel realy borink plus lonely..heh...frenster keep gettink borink rite now..so i really don know what to do rite now...feel like just want the result to come out faster..hahaha..crazy ahh...i don how to kill killl my time rite now...if i hang out to frequent my mom would say "haaii..keja dok kuaq ja..dok umah sama"..haha...addooyy...sitting at home doing notink bit on9...but rite now..on9 seem to be really borink..don know wat to do...arrghh!!!...God..please help me..*sigh...it aint feel good if you dont help urself right?...hmm...myb tomorrow i'm going to tasik darulaman...just to take da time..relaxing..haha...well....till nex time yaa..daaa~

bOrINk...

2009-02-14T08:38:00.000-08:00

bOrINk...

hmmm..rite now its 12.40a.m. already..still not gone to sleep yet..somewhere somehow feel a very borink right now..on ym but seems no one got to chat with..on fs also go one to coment with...so..i've decided to just write smething myb at least can cheer me up rite...hmmm...well..tomorrow is sunday...i just hope that everything would work out fine for 2morrow..and btw..2morrow also i'm gonna get my drivng lisence..so myb i'll start hang out...just to cheer the innerside of me rite now...kinda not feelin' well rite now..haa..to cep..dont forget aa..dat cinema thing 2morrow...haha..like his readin' dis blog..hmm..well..i got not much to say rite now...hmmm..until then yaaa...daaa~

longEst dAy oF mY liFe...

2009-02-12T05:55:00.000-08:00

longEst dAy oF mY liFe...

YEAHHHHH!!!!!!i've pass...hak2..i've da jpj test..haaa..now let me tell you all the story of today..hmm..firstly the day before i'couldnt get enough sleep at all..just imagine..i slept at myb around 1 am..then i woke up 3 am in da morning..trying desperately to get some sleep i mnaged to..buttt...hmmm..wat ever la..huhu...

Then i've reached ilmu baru sharp 8 o'clock..haaa..punctual tuh..hak2..then we'll have to wait at da reception..waiting2 and waiting and there was a man told us how were things are going on dat day..then start calling name..and i'm da lucky nmber 64..huhu..

Then went to da waiting place under da roof under a fan...hak2...then i've started with da bukit and parking2 thing..at first i thought i've to do the "jalanraya" first..but then my number was called..hmm..wat to do~..then i got in da car...trembling "sial"..hu~...then bila da finish bukit..huh!!!lega trok2..hak2..then wat da parking2 and da pnjuru2 tuh..after dat went to the waiting place again...haha...

Waiting2 seem like waiting for eternity..huh!!..hmm..then that man which looks seriously scary with his black spec..huhhhh...scary sih..hak2..haaa..then i do da jlan rya thing plak..and yahh..everythng works out well for me today..ahhhh~~....feel relieved..hhuuhh...

Haa..then i col my agent and said that i've pass..myb dis sunday..i've to go to da jpj offce..to do that card...hmmm...waa...cnnot wat...really looks forward to it...hmm..rite now..got notink to do...just waiting for dis sunday..then start to hang out myb..huhu...well..i guess thats all for now..till nex time yaa....daaa~

upSiDe dOwN...

2009-02-09T18:08:00.000-08:00

upSiDe dOwN...

haaaaaiiihhh..*sigh...wat the hell is happening to me rite noW!!!!!...argghh!!!..feeling like my world is really upside down rite now....some kindA tension..and "bebai"also...arrghh!!!!wat ever laa...hmmm...first is about dis and dat..dis ans dat..haaa..aahhh..i dont even know wat i'm writing rite now...just babbling somethg not even sure...talking about dis and dat..my jpj test is comin nearer...seriously hope to get it done soon as possible..cannot go anymore..huk2...hmm...i dont know wat to rite anymore..so..till nex time yaa...daaa~

plANNinG..

2009-02-05T06:32:00.000-08:00

hmm...rite now i'm still waiting for da jpj test..its on 12 feb..yaa...coming soon..really look forward to it...yeahh...hopefully i'm doing well la..haha..hmm..nex thing is i'm plnning to watch da movie called sifu and tongga..many said "bes trok2'.."lawak trok"..haha...so let me just experience it myself keyh..hak2..

hmm..wat next ha..hmm...haaa..today i hang out at da city plaza wif cep..haha..we all plyng cod4 then walking around and then pak hainan la of cos...haha..owh2..for ur info cod4 tuh its a type of game at @valley...sure u know rite...huhu...

well then..thahts all for now..till nex time yaa...daaaa~

mAtriX kEdah oR mAtriX UIA..

2009-02-05T05:53:00.000-08:00

haaa...now we've come to this topic eh..huhu...this thing la..i don know how to choose rite now...but i'm realy looking forward 2 enter da medic2 thing..so if you guys out there know whats rite for me..tell me keyh..really needs help with this one right now...

hmm..rite now my mom la..ask me to open up da upu thing to check some things..but i'm really not in da mood rite now to open dis thing..not ready yet i guess..huhu...

well...don know wat else to write rite now..so...till next time yaa...daaaa~

sEarchinG fOr dA trUe liGhT..

2009-02-05T05:30:00.000-08:00

hmm..wat to say eh...let me think...haa..i got it..let me open this topic by asking to all of you..what is your purpose of life eh??..have you all ever though of it deeply...u know wat..there's just so many things playing in my head..i dont know how to deal wit them...first of all is da upu thing..ARGGHH!!...this really giving me headache..aiyooo...

actually i would really want to be a doctor keyh..but the thing that was bugging my mind is that i dont like quite much biology...quite weird eh..my friends said that already..."u want to be a doc but u dont like bio, hows that eyh?"..hmmm...i seriously don know rite now..somebody help me PLEASEE!!!...addooyy...

well...the next thing is..hmm..wat eyh..dont remember..huhu..ahh..wat ever la...aiyoo..haaa..i'm currently looking for a job...so if someone got any just tell me about it k..huk2..i'm already sick of getting lazy rite now...doing notink...very hard rite now to get a job...i've already ask some places..but most of them full la...well...i guest lo luck isnt it..hmmm...i think thats all for now...till next time yaaa...daaaa~

undEr cOnstRucTiOn!!

2009-02-05T05:27:00.000-08:00

to all my blog readers..i'm sory coz my blog is still under contruction..but i'll finish it as soon as possible..look forward to it k...huhu..till next time yaaaa...daaaaa~

huh!!

2009-01-09T04:49:00.000-08:00

yaaa..at last i've mnaged to write a new post..huh..finallyy..haha...now let me just u how my life is going right now...well...i'm just quit from my work....i think about 15 days i've been working..then i decided to finished my driving lisence first...then i could think about finding another job again....huhu...owh2..my work is quite ok...not so hard neither so easy..ank for u'all info...i've worked for pustaka union k..they send me to sell books at skol simpang kuala...aku jd cashier kot..kata p la..haha...bes gak la...tp skang dh mggangur blek daaaa...huk2...

okeyh..next thing is my lisence..today i've 2 hours...still left about 6 more hours to go before qti then jpj...xsgka lak aku bwk keta neyh syoq trok2 gak la..instructer aku 2 chinese...mula2 dya swuh aku bwk dlm ilmu bwu 2 ja...then tba2 ja...dya swuh pkay seat belt then ckap nk swuh aku bwk kt jalan rya..aku plg excited skali...hahaha...bes trok2 gak la...tp time wat clap 2 yg xbes 2h..huk2..tapa2...easy and steady ar...aiyoooo~....then it'll be continued...

skang neyh..aku dh xdak pa2 nk wat...borink tahap pa xtaw ar..hak2..tapa2...aku dok plan nk g kl neyh,,adoyyy....dok angan2 mcm2 dah...tp xtaw la ka dak..insyaallah la...xsbaq2 neyh..dok sangap kl lak skang...da la buku teks xantq g..pa nk jd taw...hak2...tapa2...sok nk kuaq pkan ar...xlqat dok umah dah neyh...adoyyyy laaa...hahaha....dah la...xtaw dah nk 2leh pa...till next time....daaaaaaaaa~

2007-11-20T03:51:00.000-08:00

Many things.....

There have been a very long week for me since i put new post....well i'm actually tired to write a story....many things have happened in my life....raya, exam, camping , and holidays...first let me start with my raya day...it was like a normal day....my frens came and i went to my frens house...eat ketupat, rendang, lemang, kuih, many more to say laa...i don't earn so much la my duit raya...about 50 ringgit i think....kesian teruk....huhu~

Then my exam week....whaaaaaa....this is the most tension week la....cannot watch tv....cannot play games....cannot go town...haaiiyaaa....huhu~...tp pi open house umah khalis bleh lak....hahaha....it's about 3 week la i think....then after abis exam deepavali plak....then of couse cuti la...after the school was opened..the results already out....not too good neither too bad...but quite okay la cause study at the last minute la....formula irfan...hahaha.....

Then the prefect's camping...it's 3 days 2 night...quite fun la...i've to know more people and mixed around....we have to cook for ourselves...my team is quite good la...at least everybody cooperate....the best part is at the cultural night....i SING you know!!!!hahaha...i did not won la...but i built self confidence what...haiiiyaaa...my team managed to won the first prize at the drama....quite funny la....huhu~

The best thing is holidays....i think i could relax during the holidays but there were just soooo many things to do...first is homework then my driving license and my football and also intensive tuision....haiiyooo....xlarat maaaaa....huhu~.....i did not start my homework yet cause i've been busy with the license things.....the tuision is about i month la....very tired maaa....huhu~....

Well there were so much things to do right now.....till next time...see ya... :-)

2007-09-20T07:18:00.000-07:00

the month of Ramadan...

Ramadan is the name of nineth month of the islamic moon calendar. It is very important because it is the month in which the glorious Qu'ran is first set down by Allah to the prophet Muhammad s.a.w..During ramadan, Muslims will fast, we don't eat or drink between dawn and sunset and we should be very carefull to speak and behave in the right way. We learn many things from fasting during ramadan. It is the time to increase our goods to Allah and remember the blessing which have been given.

We learn how to be thankful for the good thing we normally take for granted. After fasting all day we will realise just how wonderful the food and drink tastes.So we thank Allah more sincerely for providing us with enough to eat and satisfies. Ramadan is a good form of training. It may a moments of time in life where things are not easy and we have to carry on eventhough it is difficult. By fasting, we learn to be patient at such time and to control ourselves, this is called self-discipline.

During this holy month, the prophet Muhammad s.a.w. said, the door of heaven are open and the door of hell close and the the devils are chained. This helps us to see who we really are, not under the influence of unseen evil forces. We can watch and improve ourselves more especially reading the Qu'ran and going to the mosque joining in the terawih prayers.

In ramadan, there is a special night which is better than one thousand month.It is called the Lailatul Qadar, the night in which the Qu'ran was first revealed, the night in which all our sins can be forgiven. Fasting is also important because it make the rich equal to the poor. It gives them a chance to realise what live is like for the less fortunate, those who have little and no food. This helps them to become more charitable and gives generously if they wealth to the needy so that they too can enjoy and shared the blessings of Allah which are enough for all.